Self Thoughts

pain from doing nothing

January 4, 2009 in Self Thoughts

Love is something that doesn’t exsist in none human heart.
It bares something can only handle by the trusted one.

Why does everything in my life seems to be unfair?
Why I just can’t laugh?
Why does happiness end ups in very short of time then pain will come?
Why I just can’t learn someone to love, if I want [...]

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AM I ???

December 30, 2008 in Blog Entries, Self Thoughts

It’s like a feeling of being lonely even if you’re in the crowd.
The feeling when pain occupies your head to the tips of your fingers!
The damn coldness of your senses will come and harass you from your very sacred annoyance.
-pudz
Why does everything in my life become like this? Is it  me who have the problem? [...]

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the cursed month

December 3, 2008 in Self Thoughts

..how could you stop this curse? That ruins the happiest month of the year of all!.. but for me, sad thing comes when December goes…
Till now, the curse of my december scares me alot.. Thinking of something that makes me feel pain or that can bring pain to me. It’s so nice to see and [...]

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failed compositions

November 2, 2008 in Blog Entries, Poetry and Songs, Self Thoughts

I’ve tried enough to create a new song composition this late night/early morning. But it seem so hard for me to compose such things that makes me feel so uneasy right now. It so hard for me right now to do such things like this, composing a song for an ex girlfriend debut,as a surprise. [...]

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hallucination of dreams

October 31, 2008 in Poetry and Songs, Self Thoughts

every stanza, different meaning, came from those hallucinative dreams of mine.

in this annoyance and confusion,,
I’m here,eager to see thee in the silent darkness,
wanting you in fantasies and wishes!.
All of that in one mind’s dream of insanity!.

Into the time of love extinction in my heart..
I wish for you to be here in my arms, though [...]

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inevitable love

October 25, 2008 in Poetry and Songs, Self Thoughts

into the love i have for you from the time i’ve met you till this point of time.
It never leaves you, to the stormy and bad days of your life.
I mustn’t love thee, coz’ it’s wrong to love someone like you..
I’ve done everything to make thee happy and feel so cared enough..
But it seems makes [...]

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writing on a pain paper!

October 24, 2008 in Poetry and Songs, Self Thoughts

it simply because of love, that’s why I’m like this..

Its seem so hard for me to find the right place for my heart!
place where everyone can understand it..
something that can opened from anything, everything I feel for…

but that place is never been there since ever!
well no one understands me! unless they will experience what I [...]

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all about love!

October 19, 2008 in Poetry and Songs, Self Thoughts

..sometimes love is not the answer!..
..coz it is you who can answer it!!…
..you must do wat you do think is right and you feel it good with your heart!..
…love sometimes is a big trouble for us!..but how can we stop loving someone??mostly when he/she doesnt think of us or care!!.. ooh well.. thats [...]

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time to change..

October 19, 2008 in Poetry and Songs, Self Thoughts

this heart loves you alot..
a heart of passion and great feelings.
admiration, devotion…
i do love you.. just like what i say before..
i cherish everything in you..
i admired your smiles
that can make my heart beats so fast..
now, its time to stand up again..
all alone.. without you..
doing things with me all myself.
thinking of changes in life..
improvements..
life can [...]

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darkroom

October 17, 2008 in Self Thoughts

a darkROOM is a place for everyone who grieve. something where you can find the hardest and painful burden in your life. BUT! did you ever think that in that dark room there’s a light that brighten up every developed picture of your life?!. well Every picture of your life was developed in a darkroom! [...]

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